Psychoanalysis

Alcohol

allows the id

to come out to play:

we joke, we lust,

we become as children;

we become 

violent,

vulgar,

unrepressed.

Men anticipate sex;

women anticipate

internalising,

narrativising,

the act,

and then talking about it

afterwards.

The dictator

is the id and ego

(and never the superego);

a stiff phallus

that must assert itself

in its sons

and inspire lust

in its daughters.

And what of Freud's ego?

What of that pipe -

the id?

The superego came through

through him,

meeting walls of ego,

supressing their

underlying ids.

My id tells me to

rape, rummage, wreck,

kill, command;

my ego tells me that

desires are non-existent,

impure,

and that the superego

will eventually

come through.

I play videogames;

I don't question why.

Maybe I'm just shy

or feeble,

and it's a way

of serving that excluded part

of my personality

and giving vent to that

unspoken life
reality.

But maybe I play them

because I feel,

like videogame characters,

I should be out there killing,

murdering, raping, stealing,

letting primal energy flow;

and this culture,

this superego,

is stopping me:

perhaps that's why

I'm off to Afghanistan next month....