I have just shut the door to this
small room,
shutting
the cat and his mewing in with me,
the
budgerigar next door making mock-human noises,
the
Coronation Street omnibus playing away
to my
quiet mother.
I have shut the door because
I want to
be alone with you, in this thought:
the other
night, near sleep, I considered
what it
might be like
if you
were someone else, and
I did not
know you:
what it would be like
if I saw
your small mottled eyes,
that
mousy face of yours,
somewhere
between peaceful and despondent,
peeping
strangely out at me
from a
crowd;
if I noticed those filmy, watery globes, that
gorgeous
smile you wear when you're amused,
that
gorgeous little smile that hides your quirky teeth,
that
gorgeous little smile that caps your silent tongue
which
works away wordlessly, but not wordless, behind
closed
doors, producing works of great beauty and great import,
if I saw your eyes, curtained with those long dreamy lashes,
I would
want to come over to you and talk to you,
because I
have noticed you - unlike how you
do not
notice yourself. I would want to comfort you.
I would
want to ask you where you come from
and what
the weather is like there.
But I do know you, and, as such,
I know
what the weather is like where you come from.
It is
always sunny. And it is always raining.
And the
clouds sweep like cobwebs through the sky.
And you
stand there, alone in a field, golden sun like honey on your face,
rain like
wool weaving you into the washed landscape.
I could paint you, now, standing there.
But what
I would rather do is step into the picture with you,
hold you,
sit there with you, drenched and sunned, blown dry
in the
gentle wind, lie down with you in the grass,
survey,
and say, "Yes, here is where we will build our house.
Yes, here
is where we will make our bed. Yes."
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