Poison

You wake up feeling horny,
search for ‘Asian big white cock’
and wank off
to that poison

You injest that Youtube,
Netflix, daytime TV
poison

You pour yourself a drink
with ice, swirl it sound, add mixer,
tip it, neck that
poison

You think about the past:
failures, misgivings,
negative thoughts, numbness,
poison

You reach for the cupboard;
cakes, biscuits, crisps - one
pack, two packs, oops! eat
an apple.
Poison

You savour cigarettes,
cigarillos, cigars, tobacco,
sucking on that
poison

You long to fill yourself
heal yourself
feel yourself
but first
you gotta deal with
all that
poison.

The wind continues to blow
the sun continues to shine
the world continues to turn
the birds continue to sing

and that poison continues to churn
and that pain continues to sting
and that fire can’t help but burn
and the waiting waits in the wings